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Jan 19

Find out what it means to me….

by Gknee

That’s right, I’m talking about respect!

Today, I told a child to just get on their bus,  saying “Have a good weekend, Bye bye” over and over because I was tired their face and their lack of respect.  Yes, I’m admitting to not being as professional as I would have liked.  I wasn’t rude.  I smiled and genuinely did want the child to have a good weekend but mostly I just wanted them out of my sight.  When a child tells me to “shut up”…..*blink*…  I imagine if I had ever behaved that way at that age.  Heck, I don’t behave that way as an adult.

I’m about to sound very old.  I have no clue how the “youth of today” are going to make it. I know there are a few good “eggs” out there and I can only imagine their struggles and how they are going try to lead their peers to a brighter future.

I know that it’s time to take a step back again and not get emotionally attached to the students I interpret for.  It’s a fine line.  One that I find myself having to find from time to time.  It gets lost among the: make sure so and so does this, and is so and so finished with this, etc.

I have a long weekend.  A perk of being an interpreter at the end of a marking period.  Teacher planning days means no students and no need for interpreters. :D I’m going to use this time to get myself in check and start off the third quarter with a more professional demeanor.

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Jan 2

I will be heard….

by Gknee

Yesterday after the Jaguar game, while waiting for the shuttle buses, I noticed, as I have in the past, several people ignoring the line and going to the front and slipping over to the back door loading area for the bus.  A normal person would have continued in line and then when reaching the point where you can break off, proceed.  No…these people cut in front of many people so they could get on the bus and would not have to stand in line.  This really irked me.  I started to talk loud and was instantly hushed and told to “drop it”.  I did…but now I’m regretting that decision.

Why should I allow such things to happen? Why should I tolerate people doing wrong?   Shouldn’t I be standing up against that?  Shouldn’t I be trying to help my fellow man learn the proper ways of civilization? Heck, to be civilized, because that behavior was not civilized at all.  Sure, you can argue that they were trying to “survive by any means possible” and that’s the order of natural selection.  Does that mean that civility takes a back seat to natural selection?  I hope not.

I was happy to hear the woman behind me talking about it too.  I heard the words “some people are just assholes” a few times.   This put a smile on my face to know that I wasn’t alone.

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Dec 22

Sure, yeah…whatever..that works…

by Gknee

Christmas time for many people means driving around visiting people, shopping, wrapping and a lot of other stressful activities.  Jerry and I are pretty low key during the holidays.  Granted, a lot of that is due to the fact that both sets of parents have passed away.  Sure we still have gatherings and such but not to the magnitude it used to be.  We now control our holidays.

This year we are spending the 23rd with Jerry’s sister.  Christmas Eve afternoon with their cousins, aunt and grandfather.  Later that evening we’ll be headed over to a local church to meet up with our friend Angie and her girls for a candle light service and then get together at their house.

Okay, okay..it does sound like we are busy but really only for 24 hours.  Christmas day will be spent lounging around the house or maybe a movie.  It’s up to us :)

I wish you all a very non-stressful, chillaxin’, Merry Christmas!!

family Holidays

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Dec 21

Tummy aches…

by Gknee

Pains so bad that I just had to go to bed.  Usually after twenty-four hours it goes away.  I’m sure it’s all related to my recent introduction to the medicine, Byetta.  Now, this doesn’t happen all the time.  It only happens when I over indulge.  That should be the hint right?  Stop eating when you are full and you won’t have these terrible stomach aches.  It’s basic….

So when something that upsets me comes along and I decide that I can have a full serving of Billy Barou from Moe’s I’m paying for it the next day.  I need to not stuff my belly!!  No more carbs to comfort myself.  Food is for fuel, not comfort! I need to use that as my mantra.  I am doing better. I’m still down 45lbs.  Still have a long way to go, but it’s okay.  I’m doing it.

It’s not like I don’t know my triggers.  Stress is my trigger.  When I’m stressed out I eat.  Not good for someone with so many endocrine problems. Maybe if I ate celery, but who craves that when they are upset.  I have little stress in my life.  The only thing right now is family drama.  The reason I ate a whole plate of nachos Monday night. I can’t control other people’s lives and honestly wouldn’t want to.  Also, I know I can sleep at night with a good conscience and that I have not wronged my family.

The lesson is, I guess, that moderation is the key.  Oh…and drama free is the way to be.  Somethings I should have already known from my life experiences.  It’s funny how life lessons come back and nip you in the bud.

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Dec 13

Fa la la la la….

by Gknee

Well, it’s that time of year again. We kicked off our Christmas season last Saturday at Jerry’s company holiday party. It was pretty fun. Jerry and I even danced. I don’t think we danced last year. *shrug*

This week is the last week of work until Winter break. Then I’m off for two weeks. Yay! Jerry is taking some time off too so we are stuck together. It’s a good thing Star Wars: The Old Republic is coming out so we can bother eachother game together.  Jerry is already “in” as he was smart and put his pre-order code in as soon as he got it.  I unfortunately waited until November 2nd.  Ah well….  We will be playing on Juyo server in case you were wondering.

This weekend we have more Christmas fun.  Friends are coming over on Friday for Chinese take-out and movies.  Then on Sunday we are heading up to Georgia for the Sutton Family Christmas.  I’m looking forward to bugging Jerry in the car for a couple of hours.  Good times…good times…

Still need to do some shopping for Christmas.  Jerry…still need to shop for Jerry….

Other than that we have been doing good. We are totally stuck on The Big Bang Theory right now.  We watch re-run after re-run just laughing like it was on for the first time.

Holidays life

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Nov 23

It’s that time of year….

by Gknee

It’s been years since I’ve enjoyed the holidays. Kind of sad actually. All the hoopla just makes me…I don’t know…meh.

I really miss Mom and Dad. They were the glue that held what I thought was a pretty close family together. I’ve come to learn that was all a farce.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. I have tons of things to be thankful for. Jerry being top of the list. He keeps me happy. I’m spoiled rotten, I’ll admit it. He dotes on me and I let him :)

I am excited about our tradition of going to see a movie on Black Friday. I’m not much of a shopper. In fact the thought of “What to get someone” makes me anxious. Maybe I’ll just give everyone pajamas. Everyone needs pajamas, right? Back to the movies…this year we are going to see The Muppets. I can’t wait! I love The Muppets and I’m ready for their madcap fun.

So from now until the New Year, I’ll be feigning some of my jolliness. I am mostly a happy person but this time of year makes me reflective of past holidays that seems simpler.

Holidays memories

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Nov 2

Hoot, hoot….

by Gknee

 

I shouldn’t be surprised by people anymore.  You’d think that with all the things I have endured in these short forty-four years that nothing that anyone could say or do would surprise me.

Yes, life is short.  Live each moment like it’s your last but don’t forget compassion.  I believe in karma and would not want to be on the bad side of it.

No one is perfect, I hardly claim to be.  In fact, I have a very low self esteem but am aware of my short comings.  Maybe that’s where the difference is.  Awareness.

Today at work we had a “stress management” training session.  It turns out I’m an Owl.  Ok, what does that mean?  Owl: The wise owl. The owl is logical, mathematically minded, methodical and sometimes seen as a perfectionist. The owl can be slow to make decisions and inflexible if rules and logic says otherwise. Owls are not big risk takers but love detail.

See…don’t break the rules!!  Be more logical!!

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Oct 17

So much…

by Gknee

I can’t believe it’s October already.  Where did the year go?

Last week was our, Jerry and I’s, fifteenth wedding anniversary.  I said to one friend, “It feels like yesterday and forever ago at the same time”  I can’t imagine my life without him.  Sure, we’ve had our ups and downs, all marriages do.  It’s work!  Nothing good comes easy. Great…I’m cliche girl now…

Next week we are heading up to Asheville, NC to attend the wedding of one of Jerry’s employees.  I’m looking forward to getting away from Jax and seeing some new scenery.  We’ve been to Asheville before so it won’t be our first time.  I think I may have to stop by the winery though and pick up some Biltmore® Century White Wine.  Although, after a google search, I see that I might be able to purchase it locally. Hmm…good to know in the future.

Work is…work.  I’m getting better about not stressing over the kids paying attention to me or not.  They hearing kids don’t pay attention so why should I bug the D/HoH kids?  That’s the advice I’ve gotten from my superiors.  Hard for me, I hate to see them fail.

Health, doing good.  I continue to lose weight.  I have a long way to go but seeing myself 43lbs lighter is good incentive.  I do better when I track via myfitnesspal.com but have been lazy the past month.  Need to rectify that soon.  I am still having problems with swelling in my legs and ankles but it is getting better. More coffee and water seems to be managing it.  The lasix works best but it dehydrates me so much that I cramp and can’t walk.  Rather be a tad puffy than not able to walk.  I go back to the doctor in a few weeks.  (Every 4-6 until things are managed again….crazy thyroid)

So yeah, that’s about it.  I am spending most of my online time on Google+ these days.  You can find me at http://gplus.to/gknee

Facebook and Twitter have become catch alls for foursquare, miso, and twitter…not really doing much there except keeping tabs on my nieces and nephew :)

Thanks for reading.

Have fun storming the castle!

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Sep 27

I blame Google+…

by Gknee

Where have I been?  Why aren’t I blogging?  Where are your millions of brain dumps?

I didn’t go anywhere.

I have been lost in Google+.

My brain hasn’t needed a dump lately…?

I have been having a blast on Google+.  I have gotten lost in conversations between people I have never met in real life talking about things way above my intellect and loving it!   If you haven’t tried it, it’s now open to everyone.  You can find me at http://gplus.to/gknee. Circle me.   :)

So brain dumps eh?  ok…

  • Rebecca Zapen’s new CD Nest is awesome, we attended her pre-release CD party last night.  You can find out more about her at www.zapen.com
  • Work is…well..I have been having an eye twitching problem due to stress.  It only happens at work so I’m trying not to let work stress me out.  I care too much sometimes.
  • Health is good, slowly the weight is coming off.  I wish is was flying off like it was before but that wasn’t healthy.  Slow and steady, right?
  • Sticking myself twice a day with a needle is getting easier.  I don’t freak out before the needle pokes through my skin anymore.  Testing blood sugar hurts more.
Not a lot cluttering the brain.  That’s a good thing!

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Sep 13

It’s time for a brain dump…

by Gknee

My brain gets cluttered and I need to put down what’s going on.  These are in no order of importance.

  • Really wish people would think before they say/post things.  You never know who is listening/reading things.  I don’t think you’d really mean to hurt someone with the things that are said.
  • Tolerance is a lesson that we all need to work on.
  • Twitching eyes are annoying.
  • Sometimes doing the right thing isn’t the easiest task or the fastest way but it is the way that allows you to lay your head down on your pillow at night and rest easy.
  • There is never enough money for all the things you can dream up.
  • Take care of yourself!
  • Kill ‘em with kindness.
  • Karma is real!
  • Don’t count on things you can’t control.  They rarely work out.
  • Lying will not earn points with me.  …and I rarely forget.
  • I’m still not a very good care giver.   I tend to be bossy.
  • Lasix is evil.  No one should have to pee that much. I know it’s supposed to be helping but come on..every 45 minutes?
  • Giving yourself a shot isn’t as tough as I thought it would be.
So yeah, these are the things on my mind right now. Hopefully, blogging about them will allow my brain to clear for more fun thoughts.
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brain dump

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