Yesterday, Robin Williams passed away of an apparent suicide. Reports say he was suffering from depression. So sad to see such a light in the world extinguished. Depression is serious stuff.
I have never been diagnosed but I know that I suffer from depression. It’s pretty common in Hashimoto’s patients. I think I try to keep it hidden so people don’t worry. In fact, I know I do that. No one wants to hear about how you feel worthless even know in your heart you know it’s not true. I know I have worth but my brain doesn’t always process that.
That fact that i’m morbidly obese doesn’t help. I feed my depression with comfort food. I have to be vigilant and I’m weak. I should probably have a gastric bypass but that scares the heck out of me. I’m not stupid about my health. I know what i need to …but do I do it? No… no…
I go to the doctor this week for my 3 month, thyroid, checkup on Wednesday. I have lots to ask the doctor. The vertigo is still there and I’ve been reading it can be Hashimoto’s related too. I hate this stupid disease. Thank goodness for blogs out there where people are going through the same thing. I might not always comment but just know that I am thankful for people blogging about how they are dealing with Hashimoto’s and depression and everything else that it effects. I think I’ll mention my moods to the doctor. I hope I’m brave enough to actually go through with it.