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Yesterday, Robin Williams passed away of an apparent suicide.  Reports say he was suffering from depression.  So sad to see such a light in the world extinguished.  Depression is serious stuff.

I have never been diagnosed but I know that I suffer from depression.  It’s pretty common in Hashimoto’s patients.  I think I try to keep it hidden so people don’t worry.  In fact, I know I do that. No one wants to hear about how you feel worthless even know in your heart you know it’s not true. I know I have worth but my brain doesn’t always process that.

That fact that i’m morbidly obese doesn’t help.  I feed my depression with comfort food.  I have to be vigilant and I’m weak. I should probably have a gastric bypass but that scares the heck out of me. I’m not stupid about my health.  I know what i need to …but do I do it? No… no…

I go to the doctor this week for my 3 month, thyroid, checkup on Wednesday.  I have lots to ask the doctor. The vertigo is still there and I’ve been reading it can be Hashimoto’s related too.  I hate this stupid disease.  Thank goodness for blogs out there where people are going through the same thing.  I might not always comment but just know that I am thankful for people blogging about how they are dealing with Hashimoto’s and depression and everything else that it effects. I think I’ll mention my moods to the doctor.  I hope I’m brave enough to actually go through with it.

 

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